Journey into Freedom Day 15
Sin, insensitivity and miss opportunity
Meditations on sin are not a time to feel bad or to wallow in guilt and despair and to centre on self. Rather they offer the opportunity to compare my own selfishness, lack of love and integrity, with the faithful love that God has shown me. It is good to recognise that whatever I have done, I am forgiven. Nothing is hidden from God. I might accept this in my head, but at the same time keep certain areas of my life out of my prayer; some things don’t seem nice or suitable to pray about. All that is human, even my temptations and sins, I can share with God.
Preparation: I come before the Creator of the Universe, the Father, the Mother, who loves me dearly. I ask that my prayer is according to God’s will.
Gift: I ask for the grace of feeling ashamed and sorrowful as I consider the effects of sin; the opportunities I have missed to love others in my life.
Setting: I let pass before my mind all that l have done in life that l now regret. I consider the people l have hurt. I think about the petty jealousies, the selfishness, the worrying about what people will think of me, the lies, the lack of thought for others and their feelings.
I then contrast my response to that of God, the source of life and love.
I remember that God has given me life itself and all my own personal qualities, natural abilities and strengths.
I think of all the people who have loved me. I see the way I have been given good things in life, food, warmth, the fruits of the earth, human concern and affection.
Conversation: In my own words I talk to Jesus. I might imagine I am facing Christ on the cross. I ask myself the questions:
What have I done for Christ? What am I currently doing for Christ? What could I do for Christ?
I tell him about my own weaknesses and failure to love fully, and then I become aware of his response to me.
Final Prayer: End with a formal prayer such as the Lord’s Prayer/Our Father.
A Thought for Today:
With God, no sin has the last word. Don’t be afraid: God loves you, loves you as you are; only His love can change your life. - Pope Francis
We can all learn from our mistakes. What lessons have I learned from life? How have I grown through my sins?
Have my mistakes matured me or made me more understanding of others? In what ways can I live a more loving life from now on?
Today’s meditation is intended to look into my own depths, to bring before God the areas of life I prefer not to acknowledge. Only with nothing hidden can I be totally open to the healing touch, to the unconditional love and forgiveness of God. Only when I admit that I cannot go it alone, that I have weaknesses, that I have sinned, that I need God, can I come into right relationship before God, as creature to Creator. When I fully accept I have been forgiven, I can then begin to forgive myself.
You may feel the need to do this meditation a couple of times.