Day 6 - Conversion
Day 6 - listen here
[Mary Magdalene] turned around backwards and sees Jesus standing there – and she did not know that it was Jesus. Jesus says to her, ‘Woman, why are you weeping? Whom are you looking for?’ She, thinking that it was the gardener, says to him, ‘Sir [or: ‘Lord’], if you have taken him, tell me where you have put him, and I shall move him.’ Jesus says to her, ‘Mary.’ She turns round and says to him in Aramaic, ‘Rabbouni’ (which means ‘Teacher’).
Mary Magdalen loved Jesus deeply, yet at first she does not recognise the risen Lord. The “gardener” asks her two questions. The first question makes room for her grief to surface, “Woman, why are you weeping?” This question touches Mary in the depth of her heart and is the first step toward healing. It gives her the opportunity to speak about her grief and to share it. The second question, “Whom are you looking for?” goes even deeper and is the question of John’s Gospel. It is about her (and our) deepest desire.
Then Jesus calls her by name – Mary. Imagine her hearing that familiar voice speak her name. The experience would have been unforgettable, but not until Jesus speaks her name does Mary know him.
We learn to recognise the voice of God in our lives, but often only gradually. Ignatius said the voice of God can be recognised because it is uplifting, consoling, encouraging. In time we learn to listen for that voice in our hearts; it becomes easier to identify, and when we hear it clearly, it is easier to answer. It is the voice that calls us to be who we are meant to be.
What is the Lord’s name for you? How do you recognise his presence in your life?
Calling Mary by her name, Jesus echoes the words of the prophet Isaiah. Pray these words and reflect on their meaning for you:
“Do not be afraid for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name - you are mine…
Because you are precious in my presence, you have been glorified,
and I love you.” (Isaiah 43:1-4)