Day 3 - Conversion
Day 3 - listen here
On the next day again, John stood, and two of his disciples, and looking at Jesus walking he said, ‘See! The Lamb of God.’ And his two disciples heard him speaking. And they followed Jesus. And Jesus turned, and seeing them following says to them, ‘What do you seek?’ But they said, ‘Rabbi’ (which carries the meaning, when translated, of ‘Teacher’), ‘where do you stay?’ He says to them, ‘Come and you will see.’ So they came and saw where he was staying. And they stayed with him that day. It was about the tenth hour.
The first words that Jesus speaks in each of the Gospels set the tone for the whole Gospel. In John, the first words uttered by Jesus pose a question: “What do you seek?” This is the first of 44 questions that Jesus asks in the fourth gospel. It’s striking that in John the first words by the risen Lord are a variation on the same question: “Whom are you looking for?” (Jn 20:15; cf also 18:4-7). It is the question for the Jesus of John’s Gospel. He invites us to become aware of our deepest desires and to express them to him in our own words.
For Ignatius, our deepest longing is identical with the will of God. Many of his letters close with something like this request: “to God’s infinite goodness, that he may give us the perfect grace to recognise his most holy will and perfectly accomplish it.” Ignatius was convinced that we must find this will of God in our own hearts. Our deepest and most authentic desire is the point at which we are most united with God. What is it that you seek? What is your heart’s desire?
God, You are the deepest ground of my being
and you love me infinitely more than I love myself.
Help me to open myself up
to your life-giving and challenging presence in me.
Enlighten the eyes of my heart
to discern your most holy will,
in which all that is good
has its source and sustenance,
today and every day, for ever and ever. Amen